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Wednesday, March 21, 2018

A letter for my son, Aqlan Ahmad

Dear son,

From the moment i heard your heartbeat inside my womb, i started to pledge.

I want to be the very best for you. I want to be your idol.
I want you to look up into me.
I want you to know that my love for you got no boundaries.


I want you to know that we might not see each other for quite some time.
So i want you to understand that it doesn't mean i do not love you anymore.
It is just that i got to do what i got to do.


When i was away,  listen to those who care for you.
Make their life easy.
You are now my mini embassador.
Make me proud sayang. As always.

When i settled everything and come back for you.


Ran from afar. Hold and hug me tight. Kissed my chin,  cheek, forehead and we touch our noses like we always did. Tell me how much you love and missed me.

I promise to bring you presents. Eventhough i know the presents could not make up the lost time. Im so sorry sayang.

Im gonna missed your smells,  your smiles,  your stares, your touch,  your care.

Love xoxo,

No recent picture taken.
#Throwback old picture.

Kinabalu Park
Eid Adha


Monday, March 19, 2018

A pinch test from Allah about redha

Last saturday i went to my MBA class at UiTM Kuantan.

During break,  we went to a stall nearby and get some light refreshments. We chit chatting and i overheard a conversation between two of my classmates.

Apparently,  Kak Shan,  our PTD officer just being transferred from a department  to another department.  She feels very sad so i try to calm her by saying that,  there will be hikmah of what is happening right now.

I shared with her about my own experience. When i feel demotivated, i straight  away do things that can motivate me back.

i remember telling her about what Datuk Dr.  Fadzilah Kamsah once told,  if we lost something that we dearly love or treasure,  we have to be redha and pray to Allah to compensate the loss with something better.  I gave her an example if you loss your car, redha and ask for new car from Allah instead.

Later when the class adjourned,  i couldn't  find my car key.. I tried to recall the last location  but i couldn't remember. I went downstairs and feel relieved that my car was still there at the carpark.

I went to the stall and ask the worker there if they saw my car key left on the table,  but one of the staff said no.

My friend and i tried to search for it in our class, at the musolla and at anywhere possible. But we still didnt get any clue.

An then,  that is the moment when i called my police friend and ask for his help to look after my car while i left my car there.  I decided to go somewhere else and just left my car there

To cut short,  one of ny friend ask me to ask the stall's staff again.  And we did.  Alhamdulillah. We found my car key.

Suddenly i feel very small.  Allah tested me on how i want to put redha into reality. Allah tested me on how to walk the talk. And Alhamdulillah,  i think i survived the test.

Sunday, March 18, 2018

A quick recap from 2013-2018

Hello everybody.
Im back in blogging after feeling inspired by my UiTM friend, Azim.

In this blog,  i plan to write everything that i feel fb or IG cannot.

Look back at 2008, why i started blogging because of my passion in writing and passion of photography. So i use this platform to capture all the moment.

My last post was on 2013. After 5 years, so much things happen to me.

Im going to do some summary here.

2013= i bought my first home
I get married to the person i love. (bukan kahwin paksa)

I get pregnant
We went on cruise trip

2014= i loss the 1st pregnancy
And i get pregnant again
10 oct 2014, #AqlanAhmad was born.  Alhamdulillah. Truly a blessing  from god. He was a perfect son i could ever ask for.
I really his hearr shaped tongue.
Decided to do minor surgery.

2015= i couldn't  think of anything  special during this year.  What i still can remember, im struggling to breast feed  Aqlan.  Up until he is 1 year old,  on oct 2015, we did Aqiqah for him.
I stop breastfeeding Aqlan.

I realized  im pregnant  again. I wasnt ready.

Aqlan took his first long step after his birthday.

December: i met with an accident
Two weeks after that i loss my 2nd pregnancy again.  It was a spontaneous miscarriage.

2016= im struggling with work.  Sometimes i feel i gave up with everything.

Oct : we went to our first oversea trip to Krabi,  Thailand.

2017= on January we did surgery for Aqlan's tongue tie.
My last Annual Sales Convention. Went to Sunway Lagoom with my Bff.

I got pregnant again.  It was the planned one. But i miscarried again on March.
April i left Public Bank
May i joined Affin Bank as Personal Banker.
May: i went to Jakarta, Indonesia trip  with PBB staff

Aug: i bought new car. It is Proton Ertiga. I left JoVi in Amir's hand.

We went to Sabah for raya haji.
I started my MBA Journey.

2018=Jan: i went on oversea trip to Yogyakarta with my BFF.

I made new bff,  but i loss a bff.  Totally a mixed feelings.

Feb: i left my job at Affin Bank
I got 3.56 cgpa for last semester.

March : i got offer from other bank.
26-29/3/2018 we are going to oversea trip again.  This time round im bringing my husband n aqlan together with my mom and dad.

Till then.

Monday, January 28, 2013

Ape yang kita buat akan kembali semula kepada kita

do not simply quote any words or download any pictures from my blog. you have to seek for my permission or at least give me a notification. your cooperation is much appreciated.tq!

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Sy mmg percaya yang setiap perkara yang berlaku dlm dunia ini bersebab. Cthnya, sy tau knp sy ditakdirkan untuk praktikal di Rhomax, sbb kalau tak sy takkan berpeluang berjumpa dgn org yang berpengaruh dlm industri minyak dan gas di Malaysia ini. Oleh sebab itu, sy juga percaya ape yang sy buat akankembali semula kepada sy.haha..poyo kan, sy cube untuk terjemah dari perkataan what goes around comes around.
Sy percaya dengan berbuat baik kepada makhluk ciptaan tuhan yang lain, kita turut akan mendapat balasan baik yang stimpal.begitu juga bile kita buat sesuatu yang buruk.pasti balasan buruk akan menimpa kita samaada kita sedar atau tidak.
Mlm semalam sewaktu dalam perjalann pulang dari Laman Ampaian,sy melalui sebatang jalan yang agak sunyi .tiba2 ada sebuah saga blm yang berhenti betul2 di hadapan sy. Sy teragak2...tetapi tetap merapati kereta tersebut. Sewaktu tngkap kereta itu diturunkan, pemilik kenderaan tu bertanya kepada sy
Dia: you nak naik atas ke?(merujuk kepada temapt tinggal sy)
Saya: yup (sambil tersenyum)
Dia: takpelah...i bawak you
Wah wah wah...terharu sangat ni...sy pon naik jela kereta tu kan...then, dlm keret pon start la berkenalan Tanya duk blok mane, no bape dan sebagainya.. lepas perkenalkan diri, tau lah nama orang yang ber,murah hati tu..shirley namanya..
Tak sangka sangat harini ade org yang sudi menumpangkan saya pulang kerumah kerana risaukan sy berjalan dlm gelap mlm.padahal, mmg it upon jalan yang dilalui setipa hari selamam hamper sebulan ini.haha...berterima aksih sgt buat Shirley..semoga die cpai kesenangn kat dunia ni sbb sudi menolong org yang kesusahan dan serba kekuranagn sperti sya. Itulah..mugkin juga berkat pertolongan ikhlas kepada sesiapa yang pernah mengenali sy..


what i want to achieve in 2013

well , for  2013,
i planned to :

1. Get married (on the way)
2. Buy house (booked)
3. Buy new hp (now eyeing HTC one X )
4. pay ptptn regularly
5. pay zakat
6. buy more gold for my self (bought one pair of earing this year)
7. get beyond hd for mak
8. go oversea
9. continue study
10. to be continue---

a big day is approaching

Now, less than a month, a special day approaching me.
Im very excited yet so nervous because i still have lots of thing to be done before the actual day.
i really hope that everything goes well during that day.

later,  i'll share with all of you some of the preparation done for that special occassion.

so stay tuned.

love xx


2012 summary

its been a while from my last updates.
as we are now in 2013, lots of things happen.
so, i would like to do a summary of 2012.
its all about achievements and memories.

well, i'll start with January 

nothing special as i couldnt remember anything special except fo rmy birthday on 4th and yeah now i remember.. family day to A famosa melaka during CNY holiday.

 is the month when i resign from easy by RHB and join Public Bank Group
13 Feb 2012

struggling to achieve target.lol


my sis getting married to a sabahan guy. yay!
went to kk for majlis bertandang. very happy with the memories there. because my love ones also join us.
Lil bro and Lil sis come back from Egypt
to kk once again.celebrating raya i put on weight


 My confirmation in service letter comes in. praise to god


Tuesday, November 15, 2011

new blog

hello guys, I want to update you guys with my new blog. if you want to follow me at the other blog, please do so. however, i will still updating this webby  blog from time to time.


see you there :)

Thursday, May 12, 2011

a broken heart letter for you

Dear you; thank you for the last two messages you send yesterday evening. they broke my heart. i can't never imagine you gave me a solution like that*.thank you so much for doing this after everything i did for you. i dont mind if you resist to help me this time and i start to think that i dont mind losing you either. i know i'm too perfect for you untill you feel insecure whenever you with me. i know i'm way too perfect. i can't help it.forgive me for that.

Monday, May 9, 2011


Sunday, May 8, 2011

it's mother's day ya' all

so, today is mothers' day. not yesterday or day before. 8th of May 2011. Today i expected to view lots of clichè facebook status that claim everyday should be a mother's day . at some point of view. i don't agree with the statement. yeah! hate me for being too honest. TT .  As for my opinion, a mother's day is a day where mother feels happy and get whatever she wanted for her special day. It's like celebrating 2nd birthday. TRUST ME! hence the retail shopping spree (on your pay day) for mum and a massive frontyard&backyard cleaning is obviously the best ever gift. BUT wait. can you do that everyday? ................................................................................................. For me, we should care for her everyday: *call her every two hours (say she have anything to say) when her phone is blocked due to late payment . haha: don't angry ma. OR *hug and kiss her everyday instead saying how much you love her. for my superb mom, thanks for everything. thanks for being a helpful hand when i broke in the middle of month and need to go training; thanks for lending me your ears and soothe my heart whenever i feel down; thanks for the advice and guidance; thanks for your understanding in many ways. i love you and will always love you.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

masih menunggu

Friday, May 6, 2011

i know you know

it have been quite sometime you and i together. like you said to my friend, 'only one part is happiness. another five are all about food'. we fought a lot along our relationship. i hate this and that. you love these and those. however, our imperfection completes each of us. you have to agree that.                                                             i know that you read this crap blog at times. SO, im not gonna write here about my feelings to you. *ok i lied. T T.                  i kinda have feelings that you wont be mine and this inner sense i had never turn me down: SO FAR...    sometimes i have a butterfly in my stomach telling me not to soooo into you. I GUESS YOU KNOW WHAT I KNOW YOU KNOW